A Muslim man had been suffering in a wheelchair for years… Until Jesus did what Allah never did…
My name is Imam Abdullah Rashid and this is my whole testimony in my own words exactly as I remember every part of it.
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It helps this find the people who need to hear it tonight. I lived for over 20 years in West Rogers Park, the neighborhood most of Chicago just calls Devon, where the halal butchers and the sari shops and the Pakistani restaurants sit shoulderto-shoulder along the same few blocks.
The smell of fresh naan and grilling kebabs drifting out of doorways from early morning until well past dark.
And where our mosque Masid al-nor had been my whole working life. People in that neighborhood knew me as a man who never missed a call to prayer.
I taught children to read the Quran every afternoon after school let out, patient with the ones who stumbled over the same verse a dozen times before it finally clicked.
I visited the sick, sitting with families in hospital waiting rooms at odd hours. I settled arguments between neighbors over parking spots and property lines.
The small disputes that make up most of what a community actually needs from its imam daytoday.
I spoke every Friday at Juma and people respected me because they believed I had answers.
That mine was a faith that could never be shaken. If you had told me I would one day stand in front of a camera talking about Jesus, I would have laughed in your face and told you such a thing could never happen to a man like me.
I believed I already knew the truth and I believed my future was settled. But the night my life changed forever didn’t begin with hope.
It began with tears. I was sitting alone in my wheelchair, my hands trembling too badly to properly wipe my own face.
A late spring storm was hitting the windows of our apartment. The power had flickered out again, leaving only a small battery lamp on the nightstand for light.
My wife, Nasarin, had finally fallen asleep in the next room after spending hours helping me into bed, changing my clothes, managing my medication.
I could hear our old kitchen clock ticking through the wall. Every second felt heavier than the one before it.
That night, I wasn’t thinking about sermons or respect. I was thinking about giving up entirely.
For 17 years, I had not taken a single step on my own. 17 years.
Every morning, I woke up hoping to feel something, anything, in my legs. Every night, I went to sleep disappointed all over again.
Doctors at three different hospitals in Chicago had examined me more times than I could count.
Some believed it was nerve damage from an infection I’d had as a young man.
Others said my case didn’t match anything in their textbooks. A few quietly admitted they had never seen anything exactly like it in their careers.
Medications came and went. Physical therapy came and went. Month after month of insurance paperwork and co-pays that drained our savings for results that never came.
Imams and community elders visited our apartment and prayed over me. Friends organized a fundraiser at the mosque to help send me to a specialist in another state.
An entire GoFundMe page my nephew set up that raised enough for two separate trips to Cleveland.
Both ending the same way. A shrug and a referral to yet another specialiSt. Nothing changed.
People who used to shake my hand with real joy slowly stopped visiting altogether. Some whispered gently that maybe Allah was testing me for some greater purpose.
Others wondered less gently whether I’d committed some hidden sin that explained all of it.
A few, God forgive them, suggested something darker had attached itself to my family. Those words hurt worse than the paralysis itself.
Every smile I forced through Friday kutbas disappeared the second I got home. Nobody knew how often I cried after everyone left the apartment.
The hardest hours were never during the day. They came at night, staring at the ceiling while the rest of the house slept, my legs feeling like they belonged to some other man entirely.
Some nights I’d close my eyes and try to remember exactly what it felt like to walk across the courtyard of the mosque before prayer.
The ordinary things healthy people never think twice about. I missed climbing the three steps up to our old porch.
I missed standing shoulderto-shoulder with my father at prayer before he passed. I missed carrying groceries in from the car for Nasarin.
I missed chasing after the neighborhood kids who used to play street hockey outside our window in the winter.
I even missed the simple feeling of being tired after a long walk. When sickness lasts a week, people bring you soup.
When it lasts a month, people encourage you. When it lasts years, most people quietly move on with their own lives.
And you start to feel forgotten in a way that’s hard to explain to anyone who hasn’t lived it.
One afternoon, only a few months before everything changed, I sat by our front window and watched neighborhood boys playing street hockey outside, their sticks clattering against the pavement.
Someone’s older brother refereeing from a lawn chair with a can of pop in one hand.
One little boy waved at me through the glass. I smiled and waved back. And the second he ran off after the ball, I lowered my head and cried because I realized some of those kids had never once seen me standing on my own two feet.
To them, I had always just been the imam in the wheelchair. That thought broke something loose in me that I hadn’t expected.
I started asking questions that frightened me. Why had 17 years passed without healing? Why did every single prayer seem to disappear into silence?
Why did my heart feel emptier the longer I served this community? I kept all of it hidden because an imam is supposed to comfort other people, not the other way around.
Who comforts the Imam once he starts losing his own hope. One evening after everyone had left the mosque, I stayed behind alone in the prayer hall.
The carpet held that particular hush an empty room gets. The ceiling fans turned slowly overhead.
Late sunlight stretched long across the floor from the windows. I looked around that room where I’d preached hundreds of times, and I quietly asked God to show me the truth, whatever it cost me.
I had no idea that this simple, desperate prayer was about to start a journey I never once planned to take.
Weeks passed and nothing seemed to happen. At least that’s what I believed at the time.
Looking back now, I can see small things had already started shifting around me. Quietly.
The way weather changes hours before you actually feel the first drop of rain. Strange conversations, unexpected encounters, questions that refuse to leave my mind alone.
They felt ordinary in the moment. Only later did I understand they were leading me somewhere I never would have chosen for myself.
On the night I finally reached the end of my own strength, I leaned forward in my wheelchair until my forehead rested in my hands and I cried like a broken man.
No beautiful prayers left in me, no confident words, nothing. That was the exact moment someone knocked on our front door.
It was almost midnight. Nobody visits at that hour. I had no idea the person standing on our stoop was carrying the first piece of a mystery that would change my whole life.
The knock came again, louder this time. Three deliberate wraps that seem to echo through the whole quiet apartment.
My wife Nasin woke and looked at me with real fear on her face because nobody comes knocking at midnight unless something terrible has happened.
She walked slowly to the door while I waited in my wheelchair, my own heart pounding.
A moment later, she came back looking confused, almost frightened. She whispered that an elderly white man was standing outside, that he said he’d driven all the way from Wisconsin and couldn’t leave until he gave me something.
My first reaction was anger. As an imam, I’d spent years warning my own congregation against Christian missionaries.
I told her to send him away, but the old man calmly told her through the cracked door that he hadn’t come to argue about religion at all.
He only wanted to deliver something he believed God had placed on his heart to bring me.
There was something strangely peaceful in his voice, even secondhand through my wife’s retelling of it, that made me wonder why a total stranger would drive 3 hours just to see a man he’d never met.
After a long silence, standing there in the doorway with my wife and my own fear and 20 years of habit all pulling at me at once, I finally agreed to let him in.
He stepped into our small living room, carrying a worn leather bag that looked like it had traveled a long way, and he wiped his boots carefully on our mat before coming further inside.
A small courtesy that struck me even in that tense moment. His flannel shirt and work boots looked like a man who’d spent his life doing something with his hands, and his face showed the marks of real age, but his eyes held nothing but kindness.
He introduced himself as Walter Higgins, thanked us for letting him inside, and never once spoke disrespectfully about my faith or tried to pressure me into anything.
He explained quietly that several nights earlier he’d been praying in his own home in a small town outside Milwaukee when he felt overwhelmed by a conviction that he needed to drive to Chicago and find an imam who’d spent years in a wheelchair.
He admitted he hadn’t even known my name at first, only the general neighborhood and a burden in his chest that wouldn’t leave him alone until he obeyed it.
He told me he’d spent the better part of a day asking around Devon Avenue before he finally found our building.
His story sounded impossible, and yet every detail matched my life so exactly that I couldn’t easily wave it off.
For several minutes, we just looked at each other, the battery lamp casting long shadows across the room between us.
I expected him to start preaching at me. Instead, he asked about my family, my health, how long I’d been unable to walk.
When I told him 17 years, tears quietly filled his eyes. He set a small wrapped package on our coffee table and told me whether I opened it or not was entirely my own choice.
He said it was his late father’s Bible and that he believed someone in this house would need it more than he did anymore.
His words unsettled me in a way I couldn’t name. I wanted to refuse it outright.
Something in me wouldn’t let me. Before he left, he bowed his head and asked if he could pray for me.
A every part of my religious training told me to say no. But another part, the broken man who’d been crying alone an hour earlier, quietly whispered that I had nothing left to lose.
I nodded, and he prayed with real humility, asking God to reveal his truth and bring healing according to his own perfect will.
When the prayer ended, nothing seemed different. My legs stayed exactly as lifeless as they’d always been.
Walter smiled gently, thanked us for our kindness, and walked back out into the dark without asking for money or recognition or even a way to reach him again.
I watched him through the window until he disappeared around the corner toward Tolman Avenue.
The apartment went quiet again, but something in my chest didn’t. I looked at the wrapped Bible on the coffee table and felt an argument start up inside my own head.
One voice reminded me I was an imam and should never open it. Another kept asking why a total stranger would drive that far just to put that book into my hands.
Sleep refused to come. Just before dawn, once Nasarine had drifted back off, I wheeled myself into the living room and stared at that unopened package for nearly an hour.
My hand reaching toward it, then pulling back over and over, terrified that opening it would change something I could never undo.
Finally, with the first gray light of morning coming through the blinds, I slowly untied the string.
The old Bible lay there, worn soft with age, margins full of another man’s handwritten notes.
As I turned to the first page, I had no idea the words waiting inside were about to start the most extraordinary chapter of my entire life.
I began reading in secret, only when Nazarene was in the kitchen or the kids were at school, telling myself I was only studying the enemy’s arguments to sharpen my own.
But the more I read about Jesus, really read, not the flattened version I’d been taught to argue against my whole career, the more I noticed something.
Every page seemed to describe someone who moved towards suffering instead of away from it, who reached for exactly the kind of person everyone else in the story had already given up on.
I closed that Bible more times than I can count, telling myself I’d read enough for one lifetime.
Every time I pushed it away, something in me picked it back up within the hour.
Over the following days, I hid the Bible wrapped in an old towel inside a cabinet under some folded blankets, terrified another imam or one of my own students might find it.
My whole reputation had been built over 20 years, and I knew exactly how fast word would travel through Devon Avenue if anyone found out what I was reading behind closed doors.
And yet every time I read, instead of anger or confusion, I felt something closer to peace.
Reaching places inside me that no sermon, no debate I’d ever won had touched. For the first time in years, I was reading not to prove someone wrong, but because I genuinely wanted to know what was true.
That realization frightened me more than 17 years of paralysis ever had. One afternoon teaching a group of boys at the mosque, one of them innocently asked why God lets good people suffer for so long.
I’d answered versions of that question a thousand times over the years. That day, no words came.
I looked at those kids’ faces and all I could think about was my own 17 years in that chair.
I ended class early and went home troubled. That evening, I opened the Bible again and read about Jesus healing people.
Everyone else had already written off. And I noticed he never healed only the body.
He restored dignity and hope right alongside it. I sat with that a long while, wondering why it was affecting me so deeply.
The questions in my heart were getting louder than any of the answers I’d relied on my whole career.
Strange things kept happening in those weeks. One night I dreamed I was walking through a long valley thick with fog, unable to see where I was going, but certain someone walked just ahead of me.
And though I never saw his face, I felt completely safe the whole way through.
I woke with tears already on my face. Another evening, sitting outside our building in my wheelchair, a breeze moved down Devon Avenue, and for one brief second, I felt a wave of hope so strong it startled me before it passed as quickly as it came.
I told no one about any of it, afraid people would think I was losing my mind.
Then came the night that shook me hardest of all. Reading late, I hit a passage that spoke so directly to my own broken condition that I had to stop reading entirely.
It felt like every wall I’d built around my heart was starting to crack open at once.
I closed the book, covered my face, and for the first time in 17 years, I sincerely prayed that if God wanted to show me the truth, he’d do it without leaving me in doubt.
I had no idea how that prayer would be answered. I only sensed deep down that I was standing right at the edge of something.
A few nights later, I couldn’t sleep at all. Rain hit our windows again. The whole house quiet except for that sound.
My wife and kids long asleep, me alone in my wheelchair by the window with the Bible closed on my lap.
I kept turning the same question over. Why did his love for hurting people move something in me nothing else ever had?
Just past midnight, I whispered another prayer, no longer as a respected imam, just as a tired, broken man who’d reached the absolute end of himself.
I told God plainly that if I’d believed something untrue my whole life, I wanted him to correct me, whatever it coSt. Not long after that prayer, the room went unnaturally still.
Even the sound of the rain seeming to fade back. I can’t fully explain what came next, but an overwhelming peace slowly filled that room, unlike anything I’d felt in 20 years of religious service.
No fear in it, no darkness, just the sense of a heavy weight. I’d carried 17 years beginning finally to lift.
I was completely awake. This was not a dream and I knew it clearly even as it was happening.
I became aware of a presence in that room that I still can’t describe in ordinary words.
I couldn’t make out every detail, but I knew with total certainty I wasn’t alone anymore.
My heart filled with both deep awe and an unexpected comfort at the exact same time.
Instead of condemning me, whatever was in that room drew me toward hope instead. And in that sacred moment, I understood without anyone telling me that Jesus had come near.
He knew every painful year of my suffering, every hidden tear, every unanswered prayer, every lonely night.
My life had never once been forgotten. Not for a single day of it. Memories from those 17 years came rushing through me all at once sitting there trembling.
The hospital rooms, the failed treatments, the long drives my family took chasing specialists. My own father’s funeral where I sat in my wheelchair because I couldn’t stand beside my brothers to carry him.
The quiet shame of needing help for the simplest daily tasks. Every one of those memories passed through me.
And instead of feeling crushed by them, I felt each one being gently lifted one at a time.
The presence never accused me. It only invited me to trust completely. And deep inside, I understood I was standing at a real crossroads.
One path leading back to the only life I’d ever known. The other asking me to surrender everything, my reputation, my position, maybe even the people I loved moSt. Then something happened I will never forget as long as I live.
That presence became even more real. And I understood that true healing begins in the heart long before it ever shows up in the body.
In that moment, I found myself confessing my own pride, my fear, my desperate need for God.
Tears running freely down my face. And for the first time in years, I felt completely, nakedly honest in front of God.
I no longer cared about my title. I only wanted the truth. As I let go, an unfamiliar warmth started moving through my body, beginning near my chest and slowly spreading downward.
When it reached my legs, I froze completely. For 17 years, I’d felt almost nothing below my waiSt. Now, there was a faint sensation I hadn’t known since the exact day I became paralyzed.
I looked down at my legs in complete disbelief. Too afraid to move them. Too afraid to hope.
Just sitting there wondering if I was imagining the whole thing. If you’re still with me, I want to pause here for a second because I know some of you watching have prayed over something for so long you’ve started expecting silence back the way I had for 17 years.
I need to tell you something Walter told me later once we’d gotten to know each other properly.
He said Jesus never actually prayed in English, that his own words, the small handful that survived in the language he actually spoke, are still sitting right there in the Gospels, if you know where to look.
After everything that happened to me, I went looking for those words myself years later.
And everything I found is gathered in one short guide. How they’re pronounced, what they actually meant.
Linked in the pinned comment under this video if you ever want to sit with them the way I eventually did.
But stay with me because what happened in the next few minutes of that night is the part I still can’t describe without my hands shaking a little.
The warmth kept building over the next several minutes. My feet started tingling like life itself was slowly returning to them.
My hands shook so hard I had to grip the arms of my wheelchair just to steady myself.
Part of me wanted to wake Nazarene right then. Another part was terrified that speaking too soon might make the feeling disappear.
I sat in silence, breathing deep, listening to my own heartbeat. And I sensed with total certainty that the moment I’d waited 17 long years for was closer than I’d ever thought possible.
I focused everything I had on my right foot. For 17 years, it had never once responded, no matter how hard I tried.
I whispered a plain prayer, asking God to help me if this was truly from him.
And with every bit of strength I could find, I tried to move my toes.
Nothing at firSt. My heart sank. I closed my eyes, fought back tears, and tried again.
This time, I felt the smallest movement, so slight anyone else might have missed it completely.
But I saw it clearly. My big toe moved. I stared at it, breathing hard, tears already running down my face.
I tried again, and several toes moved together that time. I clapped both hands over my mouth to keep from shouting.
My hands were shaking so badly, I knocked the Bible right off my lap onto the floor, and the sound woke Nasarine, who came rushing in thinking I’d fallen out of my chair.
She found me crying harder than she’d ever seen. At first, I couldn’t even answer her, my whole body overwhelmed.
Finally, I pointed at my feet and asked her to watch closely. She looked down, confused as I moved my toes again slowly, and her eyes went wide with shock.
She stepped back, then leaned in like she couldn’t trust what she was seeing. I asked her to touch my feet.
When her hands rested there, I told her I could actually feel the pressure of her fingers.
She burst into tears right there on the floor. For years, she’d massaged those same legs every single night with nothing coming back.
Now, for the first time in almost two decades, she felt me feel her. A few minutes later, I felt an overwhelming urge to try something I hadn’t attempted in years.
I braced both hands on the arms of my wheelchair and leaned forward. Nazarene panicked, begging me not to force it, terrified I’d fall and hurt myself because every earlier attempt over the years had ended the same disappointing way.
Something in me refused to stop anyway. I pushed against the chair with everything I had.
My legs trembled violently at first, my knees threatening to buckle. And then, little by little, I felt strength flowing back into muscles that had sat unused for 17 years.
My body rose a few inches and I kept going, tears streaming, until I was standing beside my own wheelchair for the first time since I was a young man.
Nazarine cried out so loud our kids came running from their rooms and froze in the doorway, unable to process what they were seeing.
Their father, who they had only ever known as the man in the wheelchair, standing in front of them on his own two feet.
The room filled with laughter and tears at the same time. My children wrapped their arms around me, helping me keep my balance, and I held on to them and thanked God over and over.
My legs were still weak after so many years of disuse. But they kept getting steadier by the minute.
I took one careful step, then another, each one like a toddler’s first steps. Nazarene close beside me the whole way in case I fell.
My confidence building with every single one. I walked slowly across our living room to the same window where I’d spent countless nights wondering if I’d ever walk again, put my hand on the frame, and watched the first light of morning come up over the rooftops of Devon Avenue.
That sunrise looked more beautiful than any I had ever seen in my life, because I was watching it standing on my own feet.
By sunrise, word hadn’t reached beyond our own walls yet, but I already knew it would soon.
My family sat together in stunned silence, trying to absorb the miracle we just lived through.
I also understood my healing was only the beginning of a much larger teSt. Walking again, it turned out, would be easier than explaining how it had happened.
I was still an imam, still known across that whole neighborhood. And now I carried a testimony that would raise questions nobody expected to ever hear come out of my mouth.
Deep down, I already sensed the days ahead would test my courage far more than the 17 years in that chair ever had.
The next morning, after we’d spent time together simply thanking God as a family, I told Nazarene I wanted to go back to the mosque for der prayer that same day.
She looked at me with real concern, worried my legs were still too weak after 17 years of disuse, and suggested I wait a few more days to build strength.
I told her as gently as I could that I couldn’t hide what God had done.
My kids watched quietly as I dressed myself without needing to be lifted into the chair, every motion strange after depending on other hands for so long.
Before we left, I stood at our front door and looked at my wheelchair sitting in the corner of the room.
I rested my hand on it for a long moment, thanked God for carrying me through everything it represented, and then walked out our own front door on my own two feet.
Walking down Devon Avenue toward the mosque, past the same storefronts I’d been wheeled past a thousand times before, people started stopping mid-motion the moment they saw me.
A shopkeeper who’d waved to me from a distance for years dropped the crate he was carrying and just stood there frozen.
An elderly neighbor rubbed his eyes twice like he thought he was imagining it. Kids who had only ever known me as the imam in the wheelchair pointed and called out to their parents to come see.
Within minutes, small clusters of people were following a little ways behind me, whispering to each other in pure disbelief.
Some smiled with real joy. Others looked almost frightened, unable to explain what they were seeing with their own eyes.
A few came close enough to ask if someone was secretly holding me up, and I stretched my arms out and turned slowly in a full circle to show them I was walking entirely on my own.
The whole street filled with questions I couldn’t yet answer. I just smiled and kept walking toward the mosque, thanking God quietly with every single step.
When I reached Masid Al-nor, dead silence fell over the courtyard. Even the pigeons that usually scattered underfoot near the entrance, seeming to hold still.
Men gathered for prayer stopped talking mid-sentence and stared like they’d seen a ghost walk up the steps.
One of the assistant imams rushed toward me with tears already in his eyes, half convinced he was dreaming.
A man who had personally helped lift my wheelchair up those same steps probably a thousand times over the years, now watching me climb them on my own.
Some people praised God right there for my healing. Others immediately asked which doctor had finally cured me.
I thanked everyone for their kindness, but didn’t answer fully yet because I already knew my complete testimony would raise far harder questions than any of them expected.
During prayer, I stood for as long as my strength allowed. My legs still trembling, refusing to complain even once, gripping the shoulder of the man beside me in the row more than once just to keep steady.
Every second on my feet reminded me the miracle from hours earlier had been entirely real.
Afterward, people surrounded me with excitement, wanting to know the hospital, the treatment, the specialist responsible for such an extraordinary recovery.
Some assumed a wealthy donor had quietly paid for surgery overseas. Others guessed a new medication had finally worked after all these years.
I listened patiently to every guess, knowing none of them were true, my heart pounding harder with every passing minute, because I understood the real explanation would shock them far more than the healing itself already had.
Before I could say anything, one of our senior community leaders arrived, Imam Tarik Malik, a man who’d mentored me since I was a young hafi.
He looked me over carefully, head to toe, and quietly asked me to meet him that evening in his office.
His calm voice carried a seriousness that told me this conversation wouldn’t be simple. I agreed without hesitation, sensing already that my greatest test was no longer my sickness.
It was whether I had the courage to tell the truth about how I’d actually been healed.
That evening, I walked toward Imam Tarik’s office with a mixture of gratitude and dread sitting together in my cheSt. My body was healed, but I knew my testimony could cost me everything I’d built over 20 years.
My wife, my kids, my reputation, the trust of an entire community. Part of me wanted to stay quiet and avoid the whole conflict.
Another part knew that if God had genuinely changed my life, I couldn’t bury it forever.
I paused outside his door, took a breath, prayed quietly for wisdom, and knocked. Imam Tar invited me to sit, but before I could lower myself into the chair, he asked me to stay standing a moment, his eyes fixed on my legs like he was still trying to fully believe what he was seeing, the same way a man might stare at a photograph he suspects has been altered somehow.
For several minutes, the only sound in that office was a small clock ticking on the wall.
Finally, he asked the same question everyone had been asking since sunrise. How exactly had I recovered after 17 years?
What doctor? What hospital? What treatment? I lowered my head because I knew my answer was about to change everything between us.
I told him the truth. No new doctor, no surgery, no medication. I explained that after years of searching, I’d finally reached complete brokenness.
And I told him about Walter, the Bible, the nights I read it in secret, the peace that had slowly filled my chest against my own will.
As I spoke, his expression shifted from curiosity into something much heavier. When I finally told him Jesus had revealed himself to me and that my healing came after I surrendered my heart to him, the room went completely silent again.
Imam Tariq stood and walked to the window without a word, staring out at the courtyard where people were gathering for evening prayer.
I couldn’t see his face. I had no idea what he was thinking. My heart pounded so hard I could hear it in my own ears.
I braced for anger, for accusations of betrayal, for an order to leave immediately. Instead, he just stood there in silence longer than any sermon I’d ever preached, while I prayed quietly for courage, knowing there was no way to take these words back once they’d left my mouth.
After several long minutes, he turned and asked if I truly believed what I’d just told him.
I said yes without hesitation. I told him no human being could convince me the miracle was imagined because I’d lived with paralysis for 17 years and was standing in front of him now on my own feet because my whole family had witnessed it happen with their own eyes.
I told him I hadn’t gone looking for a different religion. I’d only been looking for God to show himself honestly, whatever that cost me.
Tears started forming in his eyes as I finished, which caught me completely off guard since I’d prepared myself for anger, not emotion.
He sat back down and covered his face with both hands, like my testimony had cracked open questions he’d been burying inside himself for years.
When he spoke again, his voice had gone much softer. He confessed that across his own decades of ministry, he’d also prayed over people who were never healed.
That there had been nights he quietly wondered why God felt so distant. That he’d never told a single soul, because he was afraid people would lose confidence in him if he did.
He didn’t tell me he agreed with what I believed now. He also didn’t dismiss it outright.
He only asked if he could borrow Walter’s old Bible for himself. His request surprised me so much I could barely answer.
I promised to bring it to him the next evening, and as I stood to leave, he asked me not to discuss our conversation with anyone until he’d had time to think.
I respected that, but deep down I sensed God was already working in places I couldn’t yet see.
Word moved through Devon Avenue faster than I expected, the way news always does in a neighborhood small enough that everyone still knows everyone else’s business within a single afternoon.
People who hadn’t visited me in years suddenly showed up at our apartment with questions.
Some genuinely wanted to celebrate. Others came only hunting for the secret behind my recovery.
Every conversation ended with the same question. How did you walk again after 17 years?
For a while, I avoided giving the full answer because I knew the truth would bring more than surprise.
It would bring conflict, but I knew I couldn’t hide it forever. One afternoon, sitting with Nazarene in our small backyard, several respected men from the community arrived unannounced, their faces serious.
They’d heard rumors my healing was somehow connected to Jesus and they wanted the truth from my own mouth.
I looked at my wife, then back at them, and told them plainly that everything they’d heard was true, that the peace of Jesus had entered my heart before the strength ever returned to my legs, and that I could never deny what God had done for me.
The room went dead silent. One man stood immediately and accused me of shaming my own position as an imam.
Another asked how I could speak with such confidence about Jesus after teaching against exactly that my entire career.
I listened without interrupting, and when they finished, I explained calmly that I hadn’t chosen this path out of anger or money or disappointment.
I’d chosen it because I’d personally experienced a mercy I couldn’t ignore. That only after I sought the truth with a genuinely open heart did my life finally change.
My words only made them more uncomfortable. Before leaving, one of them warned me that if I kept sharing this testimony publicly, doors would start closing on me, that people would stop inviting me to speak, that some would no longer consider me worth respecting.
The warning wasn’t empty. I could already feel the life I’d known for 20 years beginning to disappear underneath me.
That evening, after our kids were in bed, Nasarine sat beside me at our kitchen table and admitted she was afraid.
Her hands wrapped around a mug of tea that had long since gone cold. Neighbors had already started whispering.
A few parents had quietly told their kids not to visit our place anymore. Some relatives had stopped returning our calls.
Even close friends looked away when we passed each other on Devon Avenue. I could see the fear in her eyes.
But I also saw something stronger underneath it. She reminded me of the night she’d watched my lifeless toes move for the first time.
The morning she’d seen me stand up out of that wheelchair on my own. No amount of pressure from anyone, she said quietly, could erase what our own family had witnessed with their own eyes.
Her words gave me fresh courage. We knelt together in our living room and prayed, asking God to protect our children, give us wisdom, and let us stay faithful even if we lost everything else.
An unexpected peace settled over us both once we finished. The kind that reminds you you’re not walking through something alone.
Two days later, I was called back to meet with the mosque leadership. This time, the room felt entirely different.
No tea offered, no small talk, just folding chairs already arranged in a half circle facing the door.
Several senior leaders sat waiting, and I could tell from their faces they’d already reached a decision before I even walked in.
They thanked me for my years of service, then explained that because of my public testimony about Jesus, I could no longer continue serving as an imam at Mazjid al- Nur.
Those words hurt in a way I still find hard to fully explain because that mosque had been my whole working life.
I thought about the weddings I’d officiated there, the funerals where I’d comforted grieving families, the children I’d taught to read their first Arabic letters.
Walking away from that ministry felt like saying goodbye to a huge piece of who I was.
And yet, gathering my few personal things, something surprising happened. Instead of bitterness, I felt peace.
I’d lost my position, but I’d gained a relationship with the one who’d restored both my body and my hope in the same night.
Stepping outside carrying a small bag of books, I expected to feel completely alone. Instead, I saw three familiar faces waiting across the street.
One was Walter, the man who’d first brought me that Bible. Beside him stood two men I recognized from our neighborhood.
They smiled warmly as I crossed to meet them. Walter put his hand gently on my shoulder and told me that although one chapter of my life had just ended, another was only beginning.
Walking away together, I had no idea where God was leading me next. But I already sensed my testimony wasn’t only meant for my family or my own city anymore.
In the weeks that followed, my life grew much quieter than it had been in 20 years.
I no longer stood in front of large gatherings every Friday, and plenty of people who’d once called me their teacher stopped speaking to me altogether.
At first, the silence hurt. Then I started to see God opening entirely new doors I never expected.
Walter introduced me to a small group of believers who met to pray and study scripture together and they welcomed me with genuine warmth instead of suspicion.
Nobody treated me like some kind of celebrity because of the healing. They just encouraged me to keep growing, to stay humble, and reminded me gently that the greatest miracle wasn’t that I could walk again.
It was that my heart had actually been changed. Those words stuck with me. I’d spent 17 years longing for my body to be healed, never once realizing God had been preparing me the whole time for something much bigger than that.
One afternoon, I got a phone call from a man named Omar calling from Indianapolis who’d heard about my testimony through a cousin back on Devon Avenue.
His voice sounded worn down with grief in a way I recognized instantly. The exact tone I’d used myself for 17 years whenever anyone asked how I was really doing.
His younger brother, Hamid, hadn’t been able to walk since a serious car accident years earlier, and the family had nearly given up all hope.
He asked if I’d be willing to come visit them, not because they believed I had any special power of my own, but because they wanted to hear directly how my own life had changed.
I prayed over the invitation and felt peace about it. A few days later, two Christian brothers from our small fellowship drove with me down to Indianapolis.
Watching the highway pass outside the window, I kept thinking how impossible a trip like that would have seemed only months earlier, back when I was still confined to that wheelchair.
Every mile felt like proof of God’s faithfulness, and I thanked him quietly the whole drive for letting me walk into places where my own testimony might actually encourage someone else.
When we arrived, Omar welcomed us into a modest house where his whole family had gathered.
His younger brother, Hamid, sat quietly in his wheelchair near the window. And the second our eyes met, I saw the exact same sadness that had once filled my own chest for 17 years.
We talked for a long time about suffering, disappointment, the impossible questions that come when healing doesn’t happen on your own timeline.
I never once promised him an instant miracle because I’d learned by then that God works differently in every single life.
Instead, I told him honestly about my own years of waiting, my own nights of tears, the exact moment Jesus finally revealed himself to me.
I told him, “Hope is never wasted when you place it in God. Whatever shape the answer eventually takes.”
Before we left, we prayed together, asking the Lord to strengthen his faith, comfort his family, and work out his own perfect will in Hamid’s life.
When we finished, I saw a piece settle over Hamid’s face that hadn’t been there when we first walked in.
Nothing about his circumstances had changed yet, but something inside him had already started to, the exact same way it had once started in me, long before my own healing ever came.
Before I tell you what happened over the following months, there’s something I want you to hear firSt. Watching what happened to me is one thing.
Learning to actually pray the way Jesus prayed in the words he really used is something else entirely.
And that’s where things genuinely started to shift for me. Sitting at my own kitchen table on Devon Avenue with a small guide open beside that same worn Bible Walter had given me.
If something in you is already saying I want that too, that same guide is waiting for you in the pinned comment under this video.
Driving back to Chicago that night, I understood my testimony was already reaching further than the people I personally knew.
Letters started arriving from different cities. Some came from Christians thanking God for how the story had encouraged their own faith.
Others came quietly from Muslims admitting they had questions they’d never felt safe asking out loud.
A few even confessed they’d started reading the Bible in secret after hearing what happened to me.
Every letter reminded me God had been using my own 17 painful years for a purpose I never could have imagined sitting alone in that wheelchair.
Looking back now, I no longer see those years as only a season of suffering.
I see them as years God spent shaping my heart, teaching me patience, preparing me to sit with other people carrying pain, fear, and unanswered questions of their own.
4 months after I stood up from that wheelchair, I was baptized in the same small fellowship hall where Walter’s group met every week, standing in a plastic tub in front of maybe 30 people who’d become something like family to me in a matter of months.
Nasarine was baptized right alongside me that same evening, both of us weeping through the entire thing.
She told me afterward that she’d made her own decision the week before, quietly after months of watching me wrestle honestly with everything, reading the same gospel passages herself at night once the kids were asleep.
Walter stood in the front row the whole time, crying harder than either of us.
Our two kids sat between him and Omar’s family, who’d driven up from Indianapolis just for that evening.
And afterward, my youngest asked me completely seriously whether this meant Duke, our old family dog who’d passed years earlier, would have liked Walter, too.
I told him I was certain of it. I still don’t have every question fully settled, and I’ve stopped pretending I need to.
I was raised my whole life to honor Isa as one of the greatest prophets God ever sent.
And I still believe every good thing I was taught about him growing up. What I no longer believe is that this is the whole of who he is.
Standing in front of Imam Tariq that first evening and every day since, I’ve told anyone who asks the same simple thing.
I’m not asking you to burn down everything you were raised inside of overnight. I’m only asking you to stay honest about what you’d believe if you were the one sitting in that wheelchair 17 years in, feeling that warmth move down into legs that hadn’t worked since you were a young man.
Today, years have passed since that morning I stood up out of my wheelchair, and I still remember every detail like it happened yesterday.
I remember the 17 years of pain, the hospital visits, the tears Nazarene tried to hide from me, the nights I genuinely believed my life would never change.
I remember the quiet knock at our gate, the old Bible placed into my hands, the night Jesus revealed himself to me and filled my heart with peace before he ever restored a single ounce of strength to my legs.
Looking back, I understand now that God was never absent during those years of suffering.
Even when I couldn’t see his hand at work, he was patiently leading me toward the truth the whole time.
If my body had been healed years earlier, I might never have searched for him with everything I had.
What once looked like endless disappointment turned out to be the exact path that led me to real hope.
I don’t ask anymore why those 17 years happened. I thank God because he used every single painful moment of them to bring me closer to him.
Since sharing this testimony, I’ve met so many people carrying burdens nobody else can see.
Some are sick in their bodies. Others are wounded somewhere deeper. Many have nearly given up because they feel completely forgotten.
When I talk with them now, I never tell them to put their faith in a miracle alone.
I tell them to put their faith in Jesus Christ because he stays faithful. Whether healing comes today, tomorrow, or in some form we never expected at all.
My life taught me that God’s greatest work usually starts inside the heart, long before it ever shows up in our circumstances.
I’ve learned hope grows stronger the longer we keep trusting through the waiting, not shorter.
I’ve learned no prayer offered with a sincere heart is ever wasted. That God hears every cry, counts every tear, and knows every hidden struggle long before another human being ever does.
Even when heaven feels completely silent, he’s still working in places our eyes simply can’t reach yet.
The same way he was working in that room on Devon Avenue for 17 years before I ever felt the first faint warmth in my legs.
Because you’ve stayed with me this far, I want to speak to three different people who might be watching tonight.
To the person who has been sick or waiting or forgotten for so long you’ve started rehearsing the disappointment before it even arrives the way I did for 17 years in that chair.
I need you to hear this from someone who lived on the other side of that exact silence.
The silence was never proof he wasn’t listening. I know that now in a way I never could have known it while I was still waiting inside it.
To the religious leader watching this who has spent years comforting other people while quietly running out of comfort yourself, afraid to admit it to a single soul, because you’re the one who’s supposed to have the answers.
I understand that particular loneliness better than almost anyone you’ll ever hear tell a story like mine.
It’s allowed to be true that you’re both the shepherd and the one who needs finding.
And to anyone who has ever built an entire identity around what your community expects from you, so completely that you’re terrified of what you’d lose by telling the truth about what you actually believe.
I lost my mosque, my title, and more friends than I can count. I have never once, not for a single day since, wanted any of it back, more than what I found in its place.
Do not let bitterness, fear, or disappointment pull you away from God. Whatever you understand that word to mean tonight.
Draw closer to him every single day. Instead, spend time in his word because it strengthens you exactly when life gets hardeSt. Make prayer a daily part of your life, not only when you need something from it.
Surround yourself with people who remind you of his promises instead of talking you out of them.
Forgive the people who’ve hurt you the way God has shown mercy to you. Love your family.
Care for your neighbors. Serve people with real humility. The world already has enough anger and division in it.
Let your life reflect the love, patience, and forgiveness Jesus showed to you firSt. If your situation feels impossible tonight, if doctors have told you there’s no cure, if your own family has quietly lost hope, if you’ve prayed for years without seeing the answer you expected, please don’t stop trusting him.
I can’t promise you the exact same miracle I received. But I can tell you with complete confidence that Jesus never abandons the people who sincerely seek him.
Keep praying. Keep believing. Keep reading the scriptures. Keep gathering with other believers. Keep loving people even when they misunderstand you completely.
